busy weekend!

it was such a busy week that i am getting a little not thinking straight..
when ever have i thought things out straight anyway? just reckless and impulsion.

ok,
standard chartered marathon voluntary for the past 4 days earn me money, volunteer t-shirts, seal points, LOA and friends =)
although my voice is like...
ya..
but still,
TP ROCKS!

a little here and there for the saturday and sunday?
maybe tmr..
too tired..
i have not slept for as long as i know.
i woke up at 8.30am on saturday morning.
i am still awake.
with soccer and standard chartered happening like free,

how drain can i get?
that drained.


TP female soccer team. *ahem. minus 4, plus a few more which is not in this photo.


the whole TP volunteers for the days in expo.

the soccer friends that i met at the expo. the world is small!

sector D2! arnt they lovely?and notice baoyi smile damn happily? must be because she stand beside me... HAHA

redback girls team from perth, australia and singapore bishan arsenal.
p.s: we won with a score of 5 goals to nil.

stand chart day2

trust me,
that women was a freaking female dog..
so what if you are a leader who can collect 30bucks..
dont boss around with me cause i am not just a tiny figure whom you could ignore.
tmr you try bossing ard again you die..
DIEEEE.

claudia was so nice..
she started the 'jasmine, you look like chicken little' thing..
then i went around a few tables to like ask for honest reply..
and their reply was yes..
ohmyguanyingma, the sky is falling..
and lingyu say the first day in ig camp she wanted to tell me already..
ohmytudigonggong, the sky has fallen...

ok!
time to hit the sack..
let me give a brief idea on what my time will be like these few days..

6/12/08, 0900 - TP soccer field, la femme futbol competiton/clinic.
6/12/08, 1230 - EXPO, standard chartered pre race collection volunteer.
6/12/08, 2200 - TP business concourse, standard chartered actual day event thingy
7/12/08, 1500 - dismiss from event venue.
7/12/08, 1700 - soccer friendly with australia perth team in braddell training ground.
8/12/08, 1900 - zhilin's dance thingy.
9/12/08, 1200 - ssm pro test 1
9/12/08, 1500 - ACC term test

friends, relatives and family,
please take note.

anytime from now,
till my acc paper,
I AM NOT AVAILABLE.
i am so not going to slot anything else already...
thank you very the much.

standard chartered day1

i cant believe i can channel so much of my tiredness away,
and be super hype up even till the very last hour.

its suppose to be a stressful period for me..
but it turn our just fine..
i think i am getting used to it...
great=)
congrats jkua..
you did it=)

orlando

I just recieved a very impt news from my OSIP.
all the best to those involved on friday=)

its yet another day.

i shall..
yes,
i should.

cause i cant be bothered with you and the you and the you anymore.
its nothing personal as we were told to be aware on the very first day.

thanks to the many,
i will be ok =)

run.

i need to get ready for culinary class in a few minutes time..
my stomach is cramping up for i dont know what reason..
maybe i cried too hard to let that happen.
but i dont want to be seen as a coward,
running away from reality..
yes, i am tempted not to go for class now..
but my stomach really is crazy..

screwed ssm

i am like so fucked.
runner, i thought i could do well.
but today,
last day in toptable,
i screwed it all up.
everything that could possibly go wrong,
went wrong.

i wanted to defend myself so badly..
i wanted to tell my team i am sorry that i couldnt handle it..
i wanted to tell the instructors how pressured i was when the chef just didnt want to hear my order.
at the moment when i heard 'you are the runner, if anything goes wrong, you are going to get it from me.' i was still calm. cause what could possibly go wrong?
then firing of dish was delayed cause of something that i cant blog about.. ask me directly... i will be more than delighted to share my story..

so where was i?
yes.
my question is why?
why nobody stood up for me during debrief?
was i that terrible?
there are so many incidents that occured which was not address.
everyone seems to attribute all the mistake at the runner..
i am no wonder women.
i have emotions too my dearests.
who said the world was fair anyway.

getting home wasnt any better.
it was suppose to be the comfort zone.
the moment i see my mum,
i know she wouldnt understand and believe i should be strong to withstand all this.
but i went on and tell her my story for today..
no i didnt tear..
cause i know i shouldnt..

i thought i would be alright.
but i was wrong, again.
dad came home with high alcohol content.
he said i treat him like he wasnt there.
he claim i didnt greet him.
what the fuck am i still in ssm or what?
i did greet and if he is going to get upset with what he proclaim,
so be it.
but thanks to the all-time great dad,
i am now crying like a fucking loser.
thanks, very much.

culinary science tmr..
toptable operation for the last day..
for the term, i was in operation at toptable for 6 times.
this afternoon was the worse.
what could possibly get worse?
fuck,
how am i suppose to face all this?



i need a getaway.